why write a four page paper reflecting a book you read a couple months ago (and can’t really remember, because you have read about ten books since) that is due tomorrow… when one can write a blog post about absolutely nothing?
I just read my oldest seeester’s blog which she mainly writes for me and me alone (as I like to think) about my adorable niece and nephew and I was just hit with the desire to have children. If you know me well, you know that I plan on adopting… as in, not birthing my children (but I will HAVE children), but loving them in the exact same way because they will be mine.
I have felt this way for as long as I can remember, not needing to create a child that looks like me but accepting one into my life and being the mother to those who don’t have one. But all of a sudden (maybe it has been happening over the past couple months) as my friends (ALL of them) get pregnant and have babies I have been thinking, “maybe that could be me one day”. WHAT? God… are you saying I have to go through pregnancy? Okay, so maybe a little of my reasoning for adopting is selfish, pregnant woman weird me OUT.
But anyway, God could be changing my heart to have a child of my own. Or He could be preparing me for a true mother’s heart to adopt a child that will become my own.
Did I mention that I am procrastinating from writing a paper?